The Gift of Self

I give You these hands
You’ve given to me
To pass on Your Spirit
And help them be free

I give You this heart
That beats loud and strong
To sing for Your glory
And teach them the song

I give You this soul
You made for my own
To guide and fulfill
The purpose You’ve shown

I give You the Love
You’ve planted in me
To flourish and grow
To shine so they see

I give You the praise
Creator of all
In faith I say yes
And answer Your call.

But all that I give
Is already Thine!
And now may I be
A branch of Your vine!
Amen!

Four Steps to Defragment Your Life

Self-help books, motivational speakers, psychologists, psychiatrists, life coaches, even ministers and religious organizations all offer ways to defragment your life. I.e. to create and maintain a sense of integration, continuity and flow within your personal life. All these paths are valid in their own way. However, to truly defragment and create the awareness of yourself as a whole, complete being, there are some steps you can take, in your own mind and consciousness, with or without outer support.

1. Acknowledge the Presence.

Whether you call it God, Spirit, Cosmic Consciousness or something else, acknowledge that there is a universal, all-knowing Presence that exists everywhere.

2. Unite with the Presence.

Give yourself Truth statements (affirmations) of that Presence. Then, move on, because if that Presence is everywhere, then it is within you. You are a spiritual being. Everything else revolves around this Truth, including everything in your physical life. Recognize this and stay with this in meditation or other contemplation, until you feel it as a sense of Truth in your own way.

3. Realize the Presence.

By now you’ve united with the Presence in your mind. Perhaps intellectually and mentally, or maybe on a deeper level. It is at this deeper, subconscious level, that realization takes place. Here, your personal identity, including that life you want to defragment and integrate, falls away. Realization means the Presence IS your very life, and the only life you have, have had, and will ever have. In short, it is all that matters.

4. Flow with the Presence.

From this point on, any changes you want to make, can be made at the root. You’ve already established oneness with the Universal spiritual Presence within yourself. This is the key to any and all changes.

Why is oneness so important? It is not some pie-in-the-sky notion that cannot be reached by the average human being. It is a state of being, where as a spiritual creation, your Higher, God-like Inner Nature is allowed to flow forth through your mental, emotional and physical existence, as well as through all levels of your mind. You were born in oneness, and this is simply, but no less profoundly, a return home, to wholeness.

Let the Presence color your picture. Let it create the reality you experience. Let it give you thoughts, rather than trying to direct it. Know within yourself, beyond thought and words, that this Spirit knows what you need. For it would not have created you otherwise; you are not an accident, but a deliberate, conscious, integral Child of that Spirit!

Without this realization, change is not lasting. Change made purely on the physical level, for instance, may feel like a chore, create emptiness, etc. The same is true for mental and emotional changes. If they are not made in accord with the Presence within you, they cannot last.

Oneness is the reason this is so. You were created in God’s image, in a complete, whole, universal image. This is hard to grasp intellectually, which is why you’ve spent so much time reminding yourself of your spiritual roots.

However, when the human mind, with its limited personal ego, is given up to Higher Consciousness, it is reflected in our outer lives.

So, am I saying don’t resolve to change anything in your life? No. But I’m offering the idea, not a new idea either, to make changes on the level where it counts.

That level is the spiritual one, the foundation of all life on this or any planet. It’s different from religion, psychology, self-help and other personal development systems. Here, you connect in your own awareness, with the very Presence and Source that created you.

The other option, as we well know, is the personal ego, separated mind. We all know where that leads, when allowed to create things on its own: It is the reason we feel we need to make changes in the first place!

Acknowledge the Spirit within you. Make it your support, your reality. And turn to it for guidance in making changes, seeking outer support, and maintaining integration throughout your life.

The closer your relationship is with this ever-present inner Presence, the easier and less threatening change becomes. The more authentic it is. And the longer it lasts.

No personal ego can defragment like that!

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The Cost of Happiness

Pay the bills, feel incomplete,
And buy more things in your defeat…

Overdraw and feel depressed.
Then look outside for confidence…

Get more money if you can,
And somehow do it all again…

For that’s the way of this old world,
Where happiness is bought and sold…

But Happiness is deep inside
Like nothing you can get or buy…

We know this, yet we all still try,
‘Cause maybe it could work this time!

But when it fails, remember this:
You hold the key to Happiness!

It’s not out there as a reward,
But born in you, a child of God!

The Journey

A reminder to all of us, to look within during any moment. Tools, other people, and knowledge outside of ourselves all have their place. However, to know that place and use it effectively, we need guidance from within ourselves.

In planning for 2014, remember what is most important. Above any relationship, accomplishment, circumstance, knowledge, acquisition or religion, if being aware of your own divinity and living spiritually is important to you, remember to put that first.

But seek first God’s Kingdom, and his righteousness; and all these things will be added to you.
–Matthew 6:33 (WEB)

We can have material things without spiritual connection. But we cannot have anything lasting without a lasting spiritual connection…

The Journey – Lyrics

Instruments: Lady – tenor Flea ukulele, frog rasp

1. I’ve climbed mountains; slid back down
Seen the summit and the town
I’ve climbed mountains cold and high
But all I needed was deep inside

2. I’ve crossed deserts; been so scared
Fighting wind yet needing air
I’ve crossed deserts lonely, dry
But all I needed was deep inside

3. I’ve seen valleys; cursed the rain
Loved their beauty after pain
I’ve seen valleys; taken pride
But all I needed was deep inside.

Oh how I prayed and ran the race
But didn’t seek the quiet place
So when I did I realized
That all I needed was deep inside.
All I needed was deep inside.
All I needed was deep inside.

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Behold, the Star!

Shining bright,
A point of Light
That shimmers through the darkness deep
Guides the way
To perfect Day –
To dawn from slumber, wake from sleep!

And by far
The bless’d Star
That pierces through the gloom so dim
Fills the Soul
To know it’s whole,
Because the Christ is born within!

Radiate
Through every state
Of mind that comes to human thought;
May the Light
Remain in sight,
Reminding us what God has brought!

The Gift of Love,
Not just above,
But here for every precious Child;
Given birth
Through us on Earth
To spread the heav’nly Light that smiles.

A star so bright,
A holy night,
A song for e’er and ever sung!
For in our hearts
We’re all a part
Of God who lives within His own!

Shining bright,
A point of Light
That shimmers through the darkness deep
Guides the way
To perfect Day –
To dawn from slumber, wake from sleep!

I am Love

This song is many things and has grown into more since I wrote it in December, 2010. It was part of my Advent celebration that year, based on
The Twelve Powers of Man by Charles Fillmore.

It’s also a reminder to be mindful of who and what we say we are.

“I am ___”

What we put in that blank is more powerful than we realize, and is a clue to our true self-image. If the words are positive, build them up. However, if “I am” is followed by negativity, we have the opportunity to choose something better and more truthful.

Still repeating a negative pattern? See
I’m so Tired: How to Feel Better Fast.

I added things to this song – compassion, forgiveness, trust, because they are qualities the human spirit needs in order to make a difference in the material world.

In any case, it is not, and wasn’t when I wrote it, an intellectual exercise. Rather, I share this song in a spirit of love, harmony with God-Mind, and blessing to everyone.

I am Love – Lyrics

Instrument: Lady – tenor Flea ukulele

1. I am love.
I am peace.
I am renewal.
I am release.

2. I am strength.
I am power.
I am wisdom.
I am desire.

3. I am hope.
I am faith.
I am joy.
I am thanks.

4. I am thought.
I am will.
I am order.
And I am zeal.

I am compassion,
Forgiveness,
Understanding,
And trust.
And I am life.

I am love.. (6x total).

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Simple Blessing – Music and Poem

This is an original instrumental, played on the harp. As you listen, I invite you to contemplate these words, or your own thoughts and feelings about giving thanks and counting blessings.

Simple Blessing

Blessings come in many forms,
Much more than what we see.
And blessings best are counted as
The God in you and me.

We’re given Life, and not just breath
Upon this spinning ball…
But onward, upward all the time,
To God the Source of all.

In having what we need we take
A moment to be glad.
But lacking something, would we still
Give thanks for all we had?

For what is there if not the things
We see as good in life,
The money, job, the home and friends,
Success, and being right?

There’s still a Spirit deep within
That shines from all we are!
If nothing else, give thanks for this,
For it’s our Source, by far!

We think we have security
From all these earthly things.
But they are tools that Heaven rules,
Just servants of the King.

And so take time to give Him thanks,
This day and every one,
For all we are and all we have,
Is ours in God the One.

Blessings come in many forms,
Much more than what we see.
And blessings best are counted as
The God in you and me.

All in Good Taste

I recently re-integrated sound healing into my meditation practice. Some exercises include vocal toning for each Chakra. I’ll describe this briefly, and then share some insights about taste on the physical, emotional and spiritual level.

Vocal toning is not about singing or performing. It means making a vocal sound with the intention of healing. World renowned sound healer Jonathan Goldman created the formula: frequency + intention = healing. Frequency refers to the physical sound. Different traditions use different pitches, notes or frequencies for the same ailment, body part, or Chakra. But that’s ok, because the sound itself does not heal. The sound + the intention to heal, is what brings us back to a state of wholeness and harmony.

I won’t go into the definition or description of the seven main Chakras here. I’m focusing today on the second Chakra, located around the navel area. The corresponding element is water; its aspect of our being is the emotions; and it governs our sense of taste.

Taste itself has many dimensions. It’s believed that the second Chakra governs the physical sense. However, taste is not only a physical sense. Physical taste is a manifestation, a more tangible aspect, of something much deeper. I believe that in balancing the second Chakra in particular, we balance our taste for all things, on all levels.

We experience taste, i.e. likes, in thoughts, words, food, clothes, friends, activities, hobbies, intimate relationships, and much more. I’ll even go as far as to say that life is a matter of taste. No matter what happens, we either have a taste or liking for it, or an aversion to it. I believe the second Chakra governs both our tastes-likes and our aversions-dislikes, and that by keeping this Chakra in balance, we can align our tastes with our souls’ purpose.

We are one Spirit, one vibration, aspects or children of one God-Creator. When we choose to balance ourselves and restore wholeness, we also restore unity with that Source. By establishing and maintaining this unified contact, we allow Source to take charge of our tastes.

Contrary to popular belief, this doesn’t mean giving up anything good! It simply, and the Truth is simple, means giving up the delusions of our finite, limited personal ego, will, and human mind. We’ve all had the experience of doing something because we had a taste for it. Maybe it was trying a cup of coffee. If you didn’t like it, you may never try another cup. If you liked it, maybe you became a regular coffee drinker.

The question is, why did we have that cup in the first place? What motivated it? What made us think we wanted that? If the motivation was off, that is, of the personal ego, of course the taste is off as well. The taste is out of alignment with the God-Presence within us.

As always, we have a choice. We can stay there, in a state of dis-ease, mis-alignment, disconnection and separation. Or we can bring ourselves back into balance.

And why would we want to do that? It’s so easy to acquire a taste for things! And if we were honest, we’d have to admit that many of these acquired tastes are negative. They leave us with a bitter taste in our mouths, pun intended. They’re over or gone, and we feel a void, an emptiness. These are escapisms, and yes, it’s so easy to acquire the taste for them. And as long as we have them, life is bearable, even good. So why do we want to be balanced, when imbalance is “so much fun?”

Because when we’re in balance, we truly live the good life! Not necessarily a life free of all negativity! But the life we were created to live. How do we know that’s good? How do we know it’s better than these acquired tastes our ego tells us we need? Because the Creator would not create, only to destroy! The Creator does not wish negativity on us. There is no punishing God. There is discipline, guidance, direction, Divine Order, but there is never punishment. All punishment and suffering are caused by giving in to the personal ego.

So this isn’t really just a discussion about physical taste. Balancing the second Chakra, and all Chakras and aspects of ourselves, is about uniting ourselves, consciously and freely, with the God of our being. This God is our true nature, and wants to live more fully and freely through us.

How do I know that? Because I exist. And I know it for you. If it were not so, you would not exist. God doesn’t create “for the fun of it.” There is no “for the hell of it” in creation. It’s always loved, flowing, conscious, and divine.

In letting go of our personal identities and tastes, we allow God to taste for and through us. And we no longer experience the void of spiritual hunger and thirst:

Blessed are those who hunger and thirst after righteousness, for they shall be filled.
–Matthew 5:6 (WEB)

The woman said to him, “Sir, you have nothing to draw with, and the well is deep. From where then have you that living water? Are you greater than our father, Jacob, who gave us the well, and drank of it himself, as did his children, and his livestock?” Jesus answered her, “Everyone who drinks of this water will thirst again, but whoever drinks of the water that I will give him will never thirst again; but the water that I will give him will become in him a well of water springing up to eternal life.”
–John 4:11-14 (WEB)

As for the Chakra balancing, it is simply a tool, a means, like meditation, of bringing ourselves back to conscious oneness with God. You may use it to balance your own tastes and all aspects of your being. Or you may use something else. The tool is less important than your intention to balance, heal, and connect with the God-Presence within yourself.

May you be blessed and know that you are one with God, your Source and Creator, living in and through you each and every day of your life!

And so it is!

“But I Want It…”

How many times have you heard a child, whether yours or someone else’s, say that? And more importantly, how many times have you declared it? Silently or aloud, we all want things, we really want things, we desperately want things. And that’s ok!

The question is, what motivates this? Common motivations include the following, and feel free to add your own:

* It’s practical.

* It makes sense.

* It’s inexpensive, cheap, or a bargain.

* It will make me money.

* It brings security.

* It solves a problem.

* It will make me feel better.

* I’m expected to have it.

* It will distract me; it’s an escape from something else.

* It fills an emotional need.

* It’s something I need to survive–or I think it is…

I could go on, but I think you get the idea. Most of the time, our motivations are based on false premises. That is, we expect things and circumstances, to change our things and circumstances!

This cannot work. The only True motivation is the God-Presence within each of us.

I cannot and will not tell you that God doesn’t want you to have money. Because I don’t believe that. However, I’ll encourage you, as I remind myself, to look within for fulfillment first. Don’t expect money or anything else, to fill your needs.

It may be a tool. Maybe that pony, lover, financial windfall, and even that cheesecake you want really is a means and a part of fulfilling your true desire. And if it is, you will receive it. When the time is right, remember this is God’s time, not yours, when you’re really ready for it, it will show up in your life.

However, if you really don’t need that, putting all your hope and desire into it, will not serve. It limits the good you can receive, because you want “this and only this,” instead of, “This or something better.” Or better still, “Nevertheless, Thy will be done.”

I always stress that Metaphysics is more than the law of attraction. And so it is! 🙂 But they do cross paths, and this is one of those crossings. What you focus on, you can have. But what are you focusing on? Really, in the depths of your mind, what is motivating the things you’re asking for?

Look again at the list of motivations above. Each one of them comes from lack. “I don’t have this. But if I did, I would also have ___ (fill in the blank).”

The law of attraction says that like attracts like. So, if you’re motivated by lack, guess what you’ll get back. More lack.

Is that what you want? Really? I doubt it.

This is why Spiritual Science teaches meditation. It’s not because a certain way of meditating will bring you the perfect life with no negative trends at all. It’s because by meditating in the way or ways that work best for you, you make a connection with the God-Presence within you.

Did you get that? I didn’t say you make a connection with your church, minister, support group, spirit guide, or that thing you want. Because meta-physics goes beyond the physical dimension of life. I said God-Presence! Go right to the Source. Skip all the middle management–angels, saints, other gods and goddesses, spirit guides. It’s not that they don’t have a place. But you want your desires to be for the highest good, right? So, ask the Source within you what that is.

Let Source motivate you. In this way, you make sure not only your desires themselves, but your motivations for them, are in sync with the wonderful, great, flowing Divine plan for your existence here and now.

Halloween Prayer

for All Hallows’ Evening

Our Father which art in heaven,
Hallowed be thy name.*
May all that is in your kingdom
In Heav’n be on Earth the same.

No matter how deep the darkness,
The glimmer of Light won’t fail.
Whatever our many trials,
We see you beyond the veil.

The mind is a maze of mirrors
Reflecting what we hold back.
May you be the Truth to guide us
And lead us upon your path.

And time is a grand illusion
We let ourselves make believe.
But may we know all is flowing
As life, death and birth complete.

For you are the Light in darkness.
You are the Peace in storm.
You are the breath inspiring
Creation to be reborn.

Our Father which art in heaven,
Hallowed be thy name.
May all that is in your kingdom
In Heav’n be on Earth the same.
So mote it be!

* Matthew 6:9, King James Version (KJV)

To those who find this offensive, I’m sorry you feel that way. I stand by the Truth that God is, and is within, everything, and this prayer was written from that knowing.